Heart
tumblings throttle my fingers.
Quakes
rumble down, shudder and linger.
There's
no stopping the persistent ringer.
I'm
humbled with each coming zinger.

Do
you know of the seeds that you sew?
Do
you see where your words make me go?
When
I try to stay safe and lay low,
You
hurtle me up into your flow.

I'm not here
To wipe your tears,
To calm your fears,
Oh no.

No,
I'm not there
To brush your hair,
To show I care,
Oh no.

You wrestles with demons while
I sit here scheming of
What I might do with my day.

My heart never wonders if
It's made a blunder, it
Keeps beating on in its way.

Yes,
I've been gone,
But watch for the dawn.
It's coming to take me away.

I am in a fog of euphemisms...
how can I light my path without emitting cranky?
I am in a sea of serious...
how can I find the shore without floating silly?

I don't know what I'm doing.
I can't even pretend.
Yeah, I want something, something,
But what I can't contend.

I've got work I need to do here,
Tests I need to take.
But when I look into the mirror,
I wonder who's awake.

Two roads float up above me.
They call me here and there.
A stagnant dis-ease grounds me
Until I just can't care.

The rain pours heavy outside.

There It Goes

there it goes

and I can't stand this but look down far broad along the way stretched out

long long way and there

it goes
and here it is

here goes world up close and present
there goes vision misty pleasant

but turning sour

there
it
goes

Miss you like madness,
Verging on teardrops,
Or Bingebinge sugar-eating,
Or who am I now? I have no idea...

Hung Up

hung up
just as I was despairing over the fact that I hadn't gotten an email
or thinking he thought I was a creeper
lol
or over thinking in gen
boom
inbox
sigh
I think into everything soo much you have no idea
i think i do.
and then you repeat it all and analyze everything
that's terrible
I'm going to try to stop
it just drives you crazy awful
for no good
ya...
bc even if that is the case (whatever you make up in your head), then it just is
it's paranoia
lol
thats a good way of looking at it

Dreams of fancy flutter and jingle-jangle
-I want you here, no one else
Here - no - no one else
Here

Licorice in my teeth, soury-sweet
Eating away at my- my
Dreams of fancy
Flutter, jingle-jangle

Alone...flutter jingle jangle
Chimes in the distance
Catch my dream
And eat it up
Licorice caught up in the trichiktie twine

Wine- soury sweet
Fancy flutters....
Down... there...
Flutter.... fleeting flutters......

ooo..........
oooo.................

ooo.

Here
Here- no- no one else
-I want you here, no one else
Dreams of fancy flutter and jingle-jangle

Lost

LOST
Where is the normal?
I'm done with most things.
I'm sorry about most things.
I'm happy about most things.
I'm generally everything
Specifically, no sir
What does that even mean?
To open up
To be you
To stop hiding
To be you
I am most things
I am
Nothing too
What does that even mean?
What does this even mean?
Where are the answers?
Where is the truth?
I don't see it
Why is there,
What is a truth?
Lost
I'm lost in most things
Generally, everything
Where is my normal?

WARM Fuzzy Spot

WARM FUZZY SPOT
this is your
warm fuzzy spot
down down deep
this is your
warm fuzzy spot
open up
eat the sun
feel it up
warm fuzzy spot
go to it
this is yours!
deep deep
down
warm fuzzy spot
where else?